Here I am surrounded by hanging plastic snowflakes, christmas lights, worn out looking parents and screaming children! I am sitting at Giggles N’ Hugs letting Jaxon get all his energy out as Mr. Fox in the play pit with the Giggles N’ Hugs crew. It’s New Years Eve and instead of rolling my hair, waxing my legs and hanging up my “Go Get Em” dress, I’m blogging from my son’s favorite indoor playground…and I don’t feel like I’m missing a thing. Considering the fact that I wasn’t really suppose to see 2013, I’m excited about the new year to come. I did have champagne popping plans when I thought Jaxon was going to visit his father for the new year. And when those plans fell through, I found myself a bit disappointed. But somehow the day is here, and I don’t feel like I want to be anywhere else, except with Jax welcoming in the New Year with noise makers and sparkling apple cider.
He and I had one heck of year, in 2012. I think he and I deserve a little party time. So, I brought him out to his favorite place for their New Years Kid’s Bash! He’s enjoying himself. At 5pm the balloons will drop as we bring in an early new year and then head to my mom’s house to party with our family of party animals until midnight when California really sees the new year dawn. I am not really sure if I have anything really profound to say or express other than I am just happy to be here. Sure I’ve said that in the past, but before April 7, 2012, it never hit so close to home. A new year brings a mountain of surprises and possibilities. You can literally start over.
I always felt like I never let anyone stop me before, but over the past few months, I cared a lot more about people and what they thought than I realized. For years I lived trying to make others happy and proud of me. I did things that I wanted, but I always accommodated and adjusted for others. Not just random people, they were significant people, people I loved. However, doing that almost killed me. Literally! I took on more than I should have. I stressed myself out and allowed people and things to stress me out. In the end, it wasn’t worth it. I never really made a New Year’s Resolution before, this year I did. I made a whole list of them in fact. More like a vision board, I guess. Promises to myself and to Jax. I’ve never broken a promise to him and I don’t intend on starting now. It’s going to be a great year for us. Hell, it’s going to be a great decade. 2013 is just the beginning…the beginning of the beginning if that makes any sense. We are starting over. At the very beginning and we are going to ride the waves, not fight against them. Start taking things as they are and people for who they are. Making the best out of situations and creating great ones. All the while enjoying every moment. Slowly I’ve been shedding dead weight and dry skin over the past year, now I’m made over. Brand new!
2013…here I come! Laissez les bons temps rouler bay-bay!